I am so annoyed, I hate you, seriously. Its your job, so please telling me what your plans are.
To me, all your wonderful proposals are just bullshit. You keep talking about them like you're going to carry them out. Talk is cheap. I bet you didnt know that, cos thats all you do. Maybe you should just pass your position to someone else - someone who is more responsible who will actually do something, and shut your mouth. I'm not your slave.

Because half the time, you're hardly ever there.

Today'd one of those days that emotions take over everything. ):
I'm feeling moody now, in a really bad way.
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One thing I fear the most, is walking home alone at night. It freaks me out, totally.
But as I was walking home alone today, I had this chance to think about things that I have never thought about. There was a lot going through my mind. But I guess what made my night the worst was, calling the person that you love so much, hoping that he'll be there for you during this dark period, but ended up leaving a miss call because he didnt pick up the phone.
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I'm currently at a lost, I dont know what to do.
The mixed feelings are drowning me.

Today gotta be the lonelist day ever - No one to lunch with, no one to dinner with.
Boyfriend, caveman and xiao ming is in school, so i cant lunch with them.
Of all days, boyfriend decides to gym today, so he'll end at around 8 plus, and thus cant dinner with me.
Caveman has to look for his halloween costume. I would tag along, but he is going with his friends. He's afraid that I'll feel left out, so he told me that he'll dinner with me on wednesday.
As for xiao ming, I dont know. He's out of msges, so he cant reply my text. ):
Therefore, I'm home now, blogging.
I'm such a loner. ):
Oh wells, I'm gonna dig into my B&J soon. My B&J makes my tummy rebel. RAH.
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On the lighter note, I passed General Paper! (: It wasnt a very good pass though.
Oh wells. One down, many more to go.
Tomorrow will be hell. ):

Haha, this reminds me of boyfriend. (:
I love you, boyfriend. (:
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I guess today was generally a thumbs up day. (:
For the very first time, I actually participated in a class activity/outing. (Arent you proud of me?) And for the very first time too, I think I understood poker. (: From what I did today, I conclude that I should never ever enter a casino. Pfft. I really suck at card games and stuff like that. Maybe the only think I'll be able to play at a casino would be the jackpot machine. Haha. Oh wells. Well, I had fun at Brandan's house today. (:
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Flea tomorrow, I dont know if I'll be able to go. ): I wanna go too.
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I went out yesterday and nought some pebbles thingy. I can now make rings, kinda. I need get the base, or whatever you call that. I can make rings! I'm excited about that. Haha. (:
Somehow, I keep linking making rings (bascially accessories) with making money. Hmmm. Money face, I know.
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I hope you're really really okay. I'm here if you need me. (:

Today, I realised that there are many ways of seeing things. Perception is something important.
I have always felt that boyfriend has this very weird thinking. However, Jared insisted that this way of thinking should be known as unique, instead of weird. Somehow, I dont think he realised it, but it struck me - Its the way that I think, that will make a difference.
Talking to Jared today made me realise quite a bit of things. Even though I still have no idea why guys dont like to talk over the phone, I know that I'm a lucky girl because boyfriend doesnt see calling me every night as an obligation. (: I've been in my world own where my boyfriend has been the worse boyfriend. I havent been able to open and see that I should count myself lucky. I'm currently feeling very bad cos I feel as if I've been a real mean bitch to boyfriend. ): Uh Oh... ):
Anyhow, Thank you Jared, HTHT with you was thumbs up. (:
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I havent been the bestest girlfriend recently, and I'm sorry for that. I'm sorry for all the unnecessary tantrums and anger. :(
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I'm a hungry girl. I regretted not going for dinner with Ben and Justin. :( I want food!
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Cloudy Chance With a Meatball with boyfriend tomorrow! (: I hope everything goes well. I pray that there will be no more arguments or any of that sort.

Somewhere along this journey called life, I've lost myself.
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I dont know why, but I have th esudden to urge to blog.
But I have no idea on what to blog about..
Oh wells. (:
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Flea tomorrow, cant wait. (:
I hope I manage to find some good buys. (:
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Poly kids starts school this week! :(
I haven't gone out and meet up with some friends. :(
And, even though I've been spending a lot of time with boyfriend (mummy is jealous), I still think that it isnt enough.
Time spent with boyfriend is never enough. :(
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Thoughts running in my mind:
1) Halloween safari special soon - crapping and catching up with jiejie. (:
2) I need/want to go shopping
3) I need to find space for my new toys
4) What Fanfan told me this afternoon and last night about friends
5) Bake something for Justina and her family!
6) Bake something for study buddies and something for Sec 4 clique - all the best for studying! (:
7) Pray real hard - I need to get promoted!
8)Most importantly, I need to lose weight (Perry Yeo, dont laugh at me!)